One damn thing he can be glad for. That Kokichi didn't end up bitten or killed or anything just by being in the walker's periphery. He knows he'll have to find his friend later- check on him- hope the experience didn't sour anything between them. He knows, logically, it won't- but Louis always is prone to expecting people to think the worst of him, largely because he thinks the worst of himself.
He nods as her response. He was expecting it, but he had to ask anyway. He feels his heart wrench in his chest again. He caused this. He made her hurt. He squeezes his eyes shut, taking in a ragged breath. Okay. Just- breathe. He can't afford to shatter right now even if that's all he wants to do.
"I'm sorry," it's quiet, bearly there. "I mean... I'm not sorry about coming to find you. I- I can't be sorry for that. But I'm sorry it ended up hurting you worse. Sorry that you had to-"
Had to put him down. It's a courtesy, in their world. You take care of your own, you make sure they can rest in peace and not roam about, their bodies driven by some awful, dead thing. But it's still not an easy action for anyone to face. He feels the tears prick at his eyes, tries to blink them away.
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One damn thing he can be glad for. That Kokichi didn't end up bitten or killed or anything just by being in the walker's periphery. He knows he'll have to find his friend later- check on him- hope the experience didn't sour anything between them. He knows, logically, it won't- but Louis always is prone to expecting people to think the worst of him, largely because he thinks the worst of himself.
He nods as her response. He was expecting it, but he had to ask anyway. He feels his heart wrench in his chest again. He caused this. He made her hurt. He squeezes his eyes shut, taking in a ragged breath. Okay. Just- breathe. He can't afford to shatter right now even if that's all he wants to do.
"I'm sorry," it's quiet, bearly there. "I mean... I'm not sorry about coming to find you. I- I can't be sorry for that. But I'm sorry it ended up hurting you worse. Sorry that you had to-"
Had to put him down. It's a courtesy, in their world. You take care of your own, you make sure they can rest in peace and not roam about, their bodies driven by some awful, dead thing. But it's still not an easy action for anyone to face. He feels the tears prick at his eyes, tries to blink them away.
"Shit."